Reflection on the Parable of the Sower

Theology and living out faith though strongly linked to each other but they are entirely two different things.

I studied Theology and I am confident of my conviction with respect to my own personal belief in the Catholic Faith but I am fully aware that there are many who never studied formal Theology or even belong to the Catholic religion yet they can live out their faith more than I do.

Whenever I or a member of a family is ill or inflicted with symptoms which could be potentially harmful, my entire world is just absolutely shattered. I lost my appetite, it doesn't matter whether the weather is good or bad, I just felt very bad that things that normally amuse me just lost their meaning.

My anxiety just choked and hampered the Word of God in me. Looking back at those worrying moments in my life, maybe I could have saved myself lots of emotional stress if only I just did not take them so heavily.

When such things happen to me I tend to question my faith. If I truly believe in Him, then why do I worry a lot. Illness comes to our life every now and then and death will surely comes in due course. But are they really worth worrying? Two things. First if our goals in life tend toward success, good health and material prosperity, then maybe there are reasons for worrying. But while those things could be tools for our ultimate goal but definitely they are not meant to be our ends. Second, worrying maybe a part of our instinct, lest if you don't worry you might not take good care much of your health or your loved ones.

One thing I am being thankful of being a worrier is that when I am worried I prayed harder and deeper. Worrying also made me a more caring and responsible person.